三房一廳，一窖

Abstract

在《三房一廳，一窖》系列創作中，我試圖以此作為理解自我的一段過程。在檢視自己以往創作過程中，發現自己在意念上一貫的疏離態度，除了疏離內在自我，亦疏離於自己所處的任何地方。在歷經一陣摸索，我發現自我早已不只是單一的個體，它包覆著我與家庭、社會文化，所有外界建立起的關係鏈。於是，我想藉由創作更正視自我的存在，更直接地面對生命中與重要他人共有的連結。起初，先藉由重要他人賦予的部分訊息，以此作為深刻探究彼此關係的入口；而後再經自我消化、反芻，將獲得的理解與感受，轉化為一則則的故事，以「插畫書」的形態呈現。接著在以水泥製作實體的「家屋」，將插畫書置放於家屋內的隔間，將我與重要他人的記憶以空間加以固著，這整個一體的裝置，就是「我」內在空間的實體化。此一創作，可說是將「時間」轉化為「空間」的過程，是一段「記憶」留給「內在自我」的深刻印記。並藉由與自我的對話與記憶的留存，於認識自己的同時，得以拾獲一些面對自我的能量。

I see my series creations—"Three Rooms, One Hall, and One Cellar", as a process to understand myself. When I reviewed my body of work over the past, I found that in my thought, in my inner self, and the places I stayed, I have a consistently estranged attitude and feelings. After groping for a while, I found that my inner self is not only include me, but my family, the society, and all the relationships that are established by the outside world.So, I decided to face the existence and inner self by telling personal stories and examining the relationships that I have with significant others more honestly. Firstly, I regard part of messages that gave by significant others as the entrance to explore our mutual relationship. Then I transform my feelings and understandings of the relationships to stories through the form of illustration books. Secondly, I build a house with cement, and put for illustration books into the house. Using space to secure myself and my memories with significant others. It means that my installation is the materialization of "my inner space". It is a process of transforming "time" into "space". It is also a deep imprint profound imprint of “my memory” given by my “inner self”. Through the dialogues with myself and the retention of my memories, I have gained power to know myself better.